A half a year has passed. The past few months are pretty fuzzy due to sleep deprivation. A blessing of the last month is that I didn’t have blue days. There were plenty of hard moments, but not blue days!
Charlotte eats solids pretty well. She has enjoyed green beans, peas, avocado, acorn squash, pear, apple sauce, sweet potato, yams, and oatmeal cereal. Oh, and she had a few bites of a yummy potato soup a friend made for us. Charlotte was sitting on her own for a few moments last night. She still prefers to be up in my arms, but I am working to slowly get her to be content not in my arms. This is simply because all of the rocking, swaying, and holding her is taking a toll on my body. She was pretty sick last week, and I held her upright, propped up some pillows behind my back, and slept on the couch. It took some effort, but she is back to sleeping in her crib. She prefers me over everyone, and although that may sound cute, it is pretty hard. I left the room to throw a diaper away, and I returned to her screaming at Kyle. Charlotte is happy for a while outside watching her sisters on bikes and scooters and the cars driving by. She is even content while I sit in a chair holding her while we watch her sisters. This is progress from only being content if I was standing. So we go out front nearly every day. Being outside is good for all of us. It is a moment of rest for me.
I wish that the moments captured in these pictures were what is was like all of the time, but the reality is that I pray for contentment in this hard season and for sleep nearly every night. I know with all of my girls that some things get much easier once I am not being woken multiple times in the night. In the mean time, I am reminded that Jesus loves me and sees me.
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I am thankful for my four girls. I am amazed at strangers and their confessions upon seeing us all together. “You have four girls, then I am not getting pregnant for the fourth time. I don’t want a fourth boy.” “All girls. I have one girl (she says this with great disappointment in her voice), but I wish I had a boy.” When someone notices my kids and is particularly curious if Charlotte is a boy or a girl, I say with affirmation that I have ALL FOUR GIRLS. I am thankful for them. I am confused as to why strangers are sad, disappointed, or negative. I have four girls. I don’t have tons of free time, but I am still taking pictures. They can be silly, sassy, funny, stubborn, kind, rude, thoughtful, feisty, creative, and LOUD. They are quiet around people, and it takes them awhile to warm up. I love them all.
We love this big 3 year old! Lydia has grown up so much over the last year. She went from a few words at 2 to overflowing with words. She has enjoyed pretending to be a kitty cat, and she recently has changed to being a catdog. I love hearing her giggle. During the morning while Eliana and Natalie are at school, she has become my cooking buddy. She also enjoys coloring, play dough, and Legos. I have to be pretty quick to capture her with a camera. She tends duck and hide if she sees the camera or even my phone coming out for a picture.
I am not going to lie. This past month has been a bit of a roller coaster with Charlotte. She went from waking once in the night to waking every two hours on more nights than I can count. We had a few failed attempts at crying it out in the day time, because I can’t handle having her cry at night. I did find out that everyone else can sleep while she cries. Everyone, that is except for me. She went from being rocked to sleep and easily laid down to waking as soon as I laid her down. Once we did have some a little success crying it out during the day, I have been able to lay her down just about to sleep and she finishes falling asleep in her crib. Her naps have been much better since she started soothing herself to sleep.
Charlotte has been up to new things this month. She has been enjoying tiny little bits of oatmeal cereal, avocado, banana, and sweet potato. Eliana has been mastering how to get Charlotte to giggle. Natalie has been great at helping keep Charlotte entertained for a few minutes at a time so that I can get a few things done. Lydia loves her little sister.
We love her bunches.