I am not going to lie. This past month has been a bit of a roller coaster with Charlotte. She went from waking once in the night to waking every two hours on more nights than I can count. We had a few failed attempts at crying it out in the day time, because I can’t handle having her cry at night. I did find out that everyone else can sleep while she cries. Everyone, that is except for me. She went from being rocked to sleep and easily laid down to waking as soon as I laid her down. Once we did have some a little success crying it out during the day, I have been able to lay her down just about to sleep and she finishes falling asleep in her crib. Her naps have been much better since she started soothing herself to sleep.
Charlotte has been up to new things this month. She has been enjoying tiny little bits of oatmeal cereal, avocado, banana, and sweet potato. Eliana has been mastering how to get Charlotte to giggle. Natalie has been great at helping keep Charlotte entertained for a few minutes at a time so that I can get a few things done. Lydia loves her little sister.
We love her bunches.
Charlotte is 4 months old. Being woken up in the middle of the night since I was pregnant with her makes time really fuzzy. Thankfully, she normally wakes just once in the night, nurses, and goes right back to sleep. She is a bit of a night owl still and is up until 9 or sometimes even 11. I look forward to having some time again when regularly all of my children are asleep and Kyle and I can hold an uninterrupted conversation. She eats every 2-4 hours, and takes nurses at the beginning of each awake time. The only exception is right before bed since she recently dropped that nap.
Charlotte is very content as long as she is being held. There is so much noise in our home, that I can’t really handle her crying very long. So, she is up in my arms. I have gotten quite handy doing things one handed.
Parenting is such a funny thing. I rocked Eliana to sleep for 7 months. I was so drained by that and her lack of sleep. Moms whose babies slept well said they read Babywise. I didn’t hold to it strictly, especially at night, but I often let Natalie and Lydia cry and settle themselves in for sleep when they were tired. But for Charlotte, I rarely let her cry long before sleep. I think it is in part because I just can’t handle one more person crying in my house. There have been those amazing moments when I notice she is sleepy, and I lay her down awake and she falls asleep on her own. Then there are days like to today in which I have rocked her to sleep, and as soon as I lay her down she wakes up screaming. Most of the time I can just pat her tummy, and she goes back to sleep. But she has been back in my arms countless times today.
In the last month, Charlotte out grew her cradle n’ swing. It has taken a bit, but she is sleeping pretty well in her crib now. Last night was the best so far. She went to bed around 9:30 and woke a little after 5. Normally she is up somewhere between midnight and 4, but I was super grateful to catch up on some rest.
I am so thankful for this little bundle of joy. I am glad her sisters love interacting with her. We are blessed to have her with us.
We have been married for 13 years! That amazes me! I realized while looking through photos that I don’t have any recent ones of just the two of us.
But I thought this would work.
I find it funny that for our first anniversary, I spent so much time planning a get away. Yesterday, I was thrilled to get out of the house with just Kyle for an hour and a half. We enjoyed some of the best Chinese food in town. It is so nice to enjoy a meal in which everyone at the table is just as thrilled about the food as I was. To top off the night, we each picked out a candy bar. I don’t remember the last time I bought a candy bar. It was probably when I was a kid or something. I felt so special being able to eat it without sharing it among all of our precious girls.
Some men wear capes to feel special and have people recognize them. Mine wears a wrap, and it gives me a well needed break. Our wee one is not a happy camper in the bouncer or on the floor unless someone is interacting with her, and even then, it can be a very short happy moment. I am so grateful for this man who loves me and has taught me so much about grace this year.
Community is …
Ms. Orignalstarbucksgal blessing us with fancy paper.
Mrs. GoDucks sending us stickers among other quality time gifts.
Mrs. Helpingheart watching our girls today so that we could go on a date!
Ms. Coolgreenglasses taking my big girls to Costco and shopping for me.
Mr. Garden taking my big girls to school when I was vanless.
Mrs. Twinkleeyes picking up the littles and me from the auto repair shop in the middle of her workday.
Ms. Heartylaugh reminding me that Jesus cared for me in the past and will today too.
Mrs. GoDucks telling me I’m not a failure and to not listen to the whisper of the enemy’s lies.
Mrs. Helpingheart holding Charlotte while I shared what Jesus has done in my life over the past year.
Mrs. Warmhugs watching my big girls on Monday nights so that I can go to Re:Gen.
Mrs. Wellmissedfriend sending me a text of encouragement from the Midwest.
Mrs. Lovesroses walking through Fulton Mall with me sharing life.
Ms. Zumba encouraging me to work out.
Mrs. You’renotalone encouraging me with breastfeeding.
Mr. Lovesroses dropping of Eliana from school multiple times a week.
Mr. and Mrs. Bravethebeachwithsmallchildren dropping off Natalie daily and Eliana too on Fridays.
Mrs. Contagiouslaugh taking Eliana to the park when I was having a blue Monday.
Mrs. Reminderofgrace sending Kyle and I on a date.
The blessing is that these have all happened in the last 7 days minus the brave acts of Ms. Coolgreenglasses.
Charlotte turned 3 months old a few days ago. She is doing well, and that is a blessing. During the night she tends to wake once, but she has slept through the night a handful of times. She eats every 2-4 hours depending upon what time of day it is. Charlotte wants to be where we are. She isn’t too content anymore in her bouncer unless someone is paying attention to her. Attention doesn’t mean bouncing her while doing something else. She wants eye contact! She also wants to see what we are up to. So instead of being okay in her bouncer while we eat, she is happy and content as long as I am holding her. I know it is just short time until she will be trying to grab my food. She is working on giggling. We love her smile that she easily shares. I love when we have “conversations”. They are such precious moments as we go back and forth making noises at each other. We love her bunches.
Lydia wanted a picture with her sister. I am glad that she wants to be a part of what is happening with Charlotte.
I am fascinated by her eye color. Natalie’s was similar when she was a baby. I wonder when or if Charlotte’s will change.
Sometimes life is chaotic. There are lots of twists and turns, and it is hard to focus on anything.
Then I take a deep breath, and I start to focus.
What I see is potential.
Then among the chaos, I am stunned.
I see hope.
Sometimes it is so hard to remember that there is hope, but when I take the time, hope is still hidden in the chaos.
Sometimes hope is easier to see than at other times.
But there are those quiet moments. When with clarity I can see. And my focus is on hope. That is what God took the time to teach my heart in the midst of a rough parenting day yesterday. I had a few quiet moments when Charlotte wasn’t crying. She was still wanting to be held, but she was quietly focusing on the tomatoes too.